a small visit paid by uneasiness

Was planning to take a short nap, ended up reading New Moon.
Not too much had i finished, just few pages, that i decided to start some studies.
And still, not too much that i managed to absorb, i laid myself back on the bed again, trying to get some sleep, since i can't get myself concentrate on the notes.
And then, again. I was distracted, by the book, New Moon of course.

Unable to concentrate on doing anything, it made me felt so uneasy.
The feeling of not knowing what actually i want to do.

For no reasons, tears started spinning in my eyes. For how long, i don't know.
Being stubborn enough, it refused to come out.
It would be a lot easier for me, if i just can let it go, if i just can let the tears drop.

huh.....the feeling of not knowing, is always so hard to deal with.

No matter how small or big it is.
Not knowing......even as minute as what to eat or do, could spoild the rest of the day.

The uneasiness, i am feeling right now.....
Uneasiness raised for don't know whatsoever reason....
argh......it is like, nothing is right...

There is nothing....but nothing.
Everything seems to be so ridiculous, even on the thing i just wrote....

whatever.....

just wanna spill something out....