我说

很怕，很不安，矛盾。

怎么办?

i am in a transition phase...

i don't know where i belong, i don't know where i will go, i don't know what i will do.

now is the time where, all i can do is wait. let the time tells.

there were a friend told me, '' i am not that strong as you''.
i told her, '' strength can be trained''.

there were another friend told me, '' i don't have the courage''.
i told her,'' courage can be trained''.

i would have chosen to be weak, if i could, and if i have the choice.

one thing that i really want to buy when i have money, is a house.

it always has not been my call

And if i ask them, they would say:

this is what you should do.

if you don't do this, X will this this this, cant that that that, Y will this this this, cant that that that.

And i should do that, because:

i haven't this this this, so i can do what i should do.

That is the problem, you are not given me the chance to even doing it, and you want me to sacrifice everything so that they or you can do what you want to do.

All of the sudden, U are important, and i am not.